I realize that becoming a parent is bound to turn your world upside down, but I didn’t know how scary and awful it could sometimes be until the day before yesterday.
It turns out our little Jellybean is prone to having febrile seizures (which are generally harmless but look just as nasty as they sound). What that means is that when her body temperature rises to a high fever (which in her case is only 39°C), her little body becomes stiff, her limbs start twitching, her eyes are at the back of her head and her little lips turn blue because she can’t breathe properly.
It happened at around 6 a.m. in the morning, she was ill but in a good mood (the happy little monkey baby she always is), I was changing her diaper and then it happened. I think I lost 15 years of my life in those 30 seconds. I had no idea what was happening, I didn’t know whether or not it would pass or if she would be going without oxygen until she died. Now that I know that it’s just a tiny harmless neurological reaction that causes the fit, I realize that all of the above sounds overly dramatic, but I still feel like I’ve been to hell and back.
Right after she had the fit, she fell into a deep state of relaxation and fell asleep. The ladybug, of course, decided to joke and laugh her way through all the horror, which was a huge consolation for her mommy while waiting for the ambulance. She really is a real trooper and a ray of sunshine.
Apparently, very few children have this “condition” and grow out of it by the age of 5 (comforting, huh?). When the fit strikes, all you can do is lower the body temperature as soon as possible. She started having a second seizure the following afternoon (her palm and arm started twitching), but we cooled her down quickly and dodged that bullet…
So, dear mommies, I’m here to tell you something that won’t help you a bit – don’t panic. It will pass really soon, even though every second during the fit feels like an eternity to you. It won’t cause your little one any permanent damage and she won’t remember a thing. If you want to ask me anything about it, go ahead. I’ve made my peace with it and decided that I’ll try my best not to allow it to scare me any more than it already has! 🙂